complaining discreetly
awakening bluntly
captivating elegantly
brutally mesmerizing
contently amusing
comparatively differing
plausible
stumbling on happines
accepting
this joyous moment in life
seize it..yes!
here i am, coping...very well, coping!
Monday, January 31, 2011
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
i am cured
Hmmm...
How can I put this, I am writing now just to make the number of my post even, becoming 50!
Silly, I know..but I can't help it to see it in odd number :)
I would like to begin with the current situation I had in the family.
There is no chance of me get away from an argument with my family, with my mom most of the time. she just Relentlessly keep bringing the topic of my illness.
Back then some years ago i had an illness which bring me back to be the person I am now.
It's not like that i am changing, but to have that kind of sickness, Indeed have made me who I am now.
Also, the weird thing is that i never show myself even closer to caught the symptom again, but she is relentlessly trying as if willing to overcome the illness, maybe prevent it from happening again.
But hey, mom! I am cured!!!
The funny thing of living with your family is that they are sometimes tries to be there when you feel there's no necessity, but they will not notice or showing their presence when you are terribly need them.
I'm sorry fams, I just felt like that sometimes.
It might be the ugliest truth I have about my family.
But i gotta spit it out right? In case of them read this writing.
Hmmm...
Friday, January 21, 2011
self reading!
I know it's been a while since my last writing.
Hey, it's 2011 now!
Who would have noticed, said this world is getting older, from which view we can see that?
Well, there are so many disaster that we have to experienced, and a friend of mine said that the world is getting older now. I won't make a statement about our world in here.
I guess all the talks about the go green is already overwhelming, and let them, the activists of environment take the part. I am not that good talking about it, it is not a matter that I am not concern.
Call me anything as you like, but it's just not my thing.
Probably people who read this, may think that I'm a bit selfish, would only cares about myself.
But well, you can't force it.
The writing should be come from within, right?
So, i will talk about something else here.
Couple days ago, i got an interview in a company with this stiff, arrogant man.
This man, i have no idea what was his part in the company, but he seems to be someone who is really have a big role in that company.
The way he commenting, mentioning my lack of self improvement, my behavior, seems too judgemental.
It is not because i can't take critics from other, I do...believe me, I do taking it wisely.
It's just the way he delivered it to me was too harsh.
Mentioning about me being so careless, that I am not struggle enough, and I said..tried to defense myself by saying, that it is depends on the situation.
If I need to strive myself out, to get what supposed to be achieved, then I am striving...hard!
He mentioned that I could not change myself in order to be accepted, like I don't have the two-faces, like most of people have.
When they showing that they like about something when they actually dislike. It's fake right?!
He was also mention that I am pretty weak as a person.
You know what I did the whole time? I was just try to keep the up face in front of him.
Showing my acceptance to whatever he offended me.
Well, maybe he didn't notice, but what I just did to him was I was faking myself, pretend that I accept and like all his comments while I dislike.
I have no idea where he could draw such a harsh statement to me like that?
Is it from the test they took earlier, or it was just depicted right through me and he could draw a line from my behavior he saw that day?
Whatever that is, it was such a great time to experienced that moment in my life, having a stranger read all in me. Priceless!!
Hey, it's 2011 now!
Who would have noticed, said this world is getting older, from which view we can see that?
Well, there are so many disaster that we have to experienced, and a friend of mine said that the world is getting older now. I won't make a statement about our world in here.
I guess all the talks about the go green is already overwhelming, and let them, the activists of environment take the part. I am not that good talking about it, it is not a matter that I am not concern.
Call me anything as you like, but it's just not my thing.
Probably people who read this, may think that I'm a bit selfish, would only cares about myself.
But well, you can't force it.
The writing should be come from within, right?
So, i will talk about something else here.
Couple days ago, i got an interview in a company with this stiff, arrogant man.
This man, i have no idea what was his part in the company, but he seems to be someone who is really have a big role in that company.
The way he commenting, mentioning my lack of self improvement, my behavior, seems too judgemental.
It is not because i can't take critics from other, I do...believe me, I do taking it wisely.
It's just the way he delivered it to me was too harsh.
Mentioning about me being so careless, that I am not struggle enough, and I said..tried to defense myself by saying, that it is depends on the situation.
If I need to strive myself out, to get what supposed to be achieved, then I am striving...hard!
He mentioned that I could not change myself in order to be accepted, like I don't have the two-faces, like most of people have.
When they showing that they like about something when they actually dislike. It's fake right?!
He was also mention that I am pretty weak as a person.
You know what I did the whole time? I was just try to keep the up face in front of him.
Showing my acceptance to whatever he offended me.
Well, maybe he didn't notice, but what I just did to him was I was faking myself, pretend that I accept and like all his comments while I dislike.
I have no idea where he could draw such a harsh statement to me like that?
Is it from the test they took earlier, or it was just depicted right through me and he could draw a line from my behavior he saw that day?
Whatever that is, it was such a great time to experienced that moment in my life, having a stranger read all in me. Priceless!!
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