self reading!

I know it's been a while since my last writing.
Hey, it's 2011 now!
Who would have noticed, said this world is getting older, from which view we can see that?
Well, there are so many disaster that we have to experienced, and a friend of mine said that the world is getting older now. I won't make a statement about our world in here.
I guess all the talks about the go green is already overwhelming, and let them, the activists of environment take the part. I am not that good talking about it, it is not a matter that I am not concern.
Call me anything as you like, but it's just not my thing.

Probably people who read this, may think that I'm a bit selfish, would only cares about myself.
But well, you can't force it.
The writing should be come from within, right?
So, i will talk about something else here.

Couple days ago, i got an interview in a company with this stiff, arrogant man.
This man, i have no idea what was his part in the company, but he seems to be someone who is really have a big role in that company.
The way he commenting, mentioning my lack of self improvement, my behavior, seems too judgemental.
It is not because i can't take critics from other, I do...believe me, I do taking it wisely.
It's just the way he delivered it to me was too harsh.
Mentioning about me being so careless, that I am not struggle enough, and I said..tried to defense myself by saying, that it is depends on the situation.
If I need to strive myself out, to get what supposed to be achieved, then I am striving...hard!
He mentioned that I could not change myself in order to be accepted, like I don't have the two-faces, like most of people have.
When they showing that they like about something when they actually dislike. It's fake right?!

He was also mention that I am pretty weak as a person.
You know what I did the whole time? I was just try to keep the up face in front of him.
Showing my acceptance to whatever he offended me.
Well, maybe he didn't notice, but what I just did to him was I was faking myself, pretend that I accept and like all his comments while I dislike.
I have no idea where he could draw such a harsh statement to me like that?
Is it from the test they took earlier, or it was just depicted right through me and he could draw a line from my behavior he saw that day?
Whatever that is, it was such a great time to experienced that moment in my life, having a stranger read all in me. Priceless!!