Am I as Gloomy as Eeyore?

A very good friend of mine was asking, "Do you have anything to write on your blog again, now?"
I answered, "Not yet, there are lot of things going on in my head these days"
But, here I am..writing again.
I woke up lil bit too early today. I was talking to a friend til morning, it's been a while for us not speaking to each other. It's always been lovely talking and laughing out loud with him..Kitty.
Then I couldn't sleep anymore, made a cup of coffee, and here I am.

My birthday would be a week from now! Darn it, I don't feel good about this whole birthday thingy.
To me, it's just another day to pass on, nothing special, except I'm getting older without noticed it. While i'm seeing myself now, as someone who still haven't make anything great in life. Kitty said, that my life is just about to begin. "You're not ready to have any husband, kids, not even a boyfriend just yet..but there will be an adventure in your life coming ahead of you. I can see it through your eyes", he said.
Well, I try to understand what he said about it..but, for this 25th birthday.
I simply don't want anything.
I just want to be able to live my life as the way it is.
As Kitty would say, "You just want to live your life faster Gilang".
I would like to find the answer of my life and pursue my dream, especially..my career.
Yet, there are lots of things I want to achieve in this life, and I can assure you that it is not marriage.
Far away from that stupid word begin with the letter M.
Hmmm.. I know 25 is probably just a number.
But it could representing that Ive been living for a half of the 50 years I might have in this world.
It's a daft life..I know. I'll have my finger crossed..tightly this time =)

The way I see this life, is I live my life to the fullest in the present time. I do think about the future time, but..more of an imagination I have, like...about what I would love to be, how I'll end up this life later, and some other silly things to imagine. Maybe I sounds a bit of ignorant but I never plan anything in my life.

I am not a well-organized person. I live as the way it is. I can get whatever in front of me, the job opportunities (not all of the opportunity tho..sometimes, I like to skipped and wait for the best), love life, whatever..I just try to live it wisely..keep it light and sane.
Kitty said, I'm like Eeyore in the Winnie the Pooh...do I look  gloomy? Well, probably I am..sometimes, I cried..we would call each other and he would be there calms me down.

One day, Eeyore noticed he's losing his tail off, he would still keep moving, and say.."I will look for the tail, the tail will be found if it's there for me, if it's can't be found, then it's Ok"
That's you! he said, "You will keep moving and live. You don't worry too much when you have a problem, you're just keep on going". Well..I have no idea, why he would think of me that way.
I am worry too sometimes, human do worries.
That's why I cry sometimes, when I can't coping well with my head and it gets too much there.
So, I doubt it whether I am like what he's saying. Tho, I try to keep myself sane and keep my feet on the ground. Thanks to you, Kitty..