shattered into ashes

it's all begin with the attractions
i don't know when it all sparks
when the hopes shattered into ashes
all the dreams and the praying chants
all the letters came out of my mouth
the syllables, the consonants, the vocal words
it's all crumbles by some thoughts

how could i survived, how could WE survived?
without to suffer the pain
weeping wounds i never healed

those questions hang me onto the biggest silence
choke me to my quiet nights
it's not like i don't know the answer
i may know the answer
but
the reality of knowing each others' dream
the reality of how we understand the truth
the truth where we step on our feet
the path that we chose
that come up with a closed and sealed lips on me

how can i hold this evolving feelings for you?
how long does it will take me?
all these rambling sentences erupts
provokes me to take the acts
yet make a change

i adore you, my dear..
i do
will you not wait til i shattered into ashes?
because i am here now..
i can bear to wait you
i know i can
and i do